[ izō is doodling shapes in the rings of water left on the bar by the cups for a little bit. he's thinking, which usually means he needs to drink more, and he hates thinking. ]
The fuck's in it for him anyway? Or—... anybody? Y' think people can really be happy here? Knowin' what's out there if ya take a walk.
[ meaning the end of the multiverse and all, since he knows that's a field trip some people can make. he has opted out of that, personally. ]
( you and her both, Manslayer. she doesn't need the reminder, and what does staring at that shit do other than make this mountain seem even larger? )
Think you forget for a while.
( it's been the hardest part of this for her. sure, she knows why she's here, she knows the job they've got and the importance it holds to her loved ones, but when nothing happens for so long, when everyone's going about their days as though nothing is going wrong, you become complacent. you have to find a way to fill the hours between disasters, after all.
it's hard to enjoy this when the weight of why you're there keeps creeping up on you, knocking you breathless with guilt. )
... I do.
( congrats, Manslayer. she's drunk enough to admit that aloud. )
[ it surprises him a little. probably because she handles her business and no one's making her do that, so he figures she's probably more dutiful about the whole calamity thing than he's ever been. ]
What's real fucked is the day I got here I said "I ain't savin' shit".
[ how dare this place make him care about things??? now look at him. but the disasters all hit a little too close to home, what with the sort of time he grew up in and all. ]
One day I'm gonna say I ain't gettin' involved an' stick with it...
( work is both a symptom of forgetting and a way to keep her sanity while stuck here. if she didn't have that structure, that frame for her day, there'd be nothing but alcohol and sex to shut out the worst thoughts from her mind.
she needs to work. she doesn't know who she is without it. doesn't want to know who she is without it.
but rip, Izo. she gets that, though. )
Said I were only here to save Marc 'n' Ainsworth. Rest of you could burn for all I care.
( nowadays... she doesn't know how true that is. could she kill Izo if it meant saving her brother and best friend? Caster? Rei? Rider? Thanatos or any of the myriad other people she's grown to enjoy the company of? )
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[ izō is doodling shapes in the rings of water left on the bar by the cups for a little bit. he's thinking, which usually means he needs to drink more, and he hates thinking. ]
The fuck's in it for him anyway? Or—... anybody? Y' think people can really be happy here? Knowin' what's out there if ya take a walk.
[ meaning the end of the multiverse and all, since he knows that's a field trip some people can make. he has opted out of that, personally. ]
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Think you forget for a while.
( it's been the hardest part of this for her. sure, she knows why she's here, she knows the job they've got and the importance it holds to her loved ones, but when nothing happens for so long, when everyone's going about their days as though nothing is going wrong, you become complacent. you have to find a way to fill the hours between disasters, after all.
it's hard to enjoy this when the weight of why you're there keeps creeping up on you, knocking you breathless with guilt. )
... I do.
( congrats, Manslayer. she's drunk enough to admit that aloud. )
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[ it surprises him a little. probably because she handles her business and no one's making her do that, so he figures she's probably more dutiful about the whole calamity thing than he's ever been. ]
What's real fucked is the day I got here I said "I ain't savin' shit".
[ how dare this place make him care about things??? now look at him. but the disasters all hit a little too close to home, what with the sort of time he grew up in and all. ]
One day I'm gonna say I ain't gettin' involved an' stick with it...
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she needs to work. she doesn't know who she is without it. doesn't want to know who she is without it.
but rip, Izo. she gets that, though. )
Said I were only here to save Marc 'n' Ainsworth. Rest of you could burn for all I care.
( nowadays... she doesn't know how true that is. could she kill Izo if it meant saving her brother and best friend? Caster? Rei? Rider? Thanatos or any of the myriad other people she's grown to enjoy the company of? )